I’m Back…. :)

Hello My Friends,
Ok, I admit it….I’ve been MIA for way too long, as our friend Dorothy kindly reminded me last night. Soo, here I go with some sharing with apologies for being absent for such a long time.

Over the past several months I have come to accept and realize many, many things. Some were fairly simple things, others, not so easy. One of the greatest things I have learned is that growth occurs and lessons are learned during those “not so easy” times, and that we should accept these times as blessings in disguise. I have adopted the saying, “I am appreciative and grateful for all things.” as my daily mantra. Believe it or not, just the saying of these words has changed my outlook on life…

I have been on a roller coaster ride of a marriage for more than a decade. I have stayed in this relationship with the hope that one day things would be lovely, but with a somewhat heavy heart, I realize now that this “marriage” was a very big learning experience for me, a huge lesson, indeed. I have accepted unacceptable for entirely too long. It has affected my health, my mind, my heart and my family and friends. You might ask, “Why? Why have you stayed in this negative environment?” My only answer is FEAR, fear of the unknown…

After my initial trip to Panama, which our Dorothy bravely chose to take with me, possibilities and dreams began to manifest. Our hearts opened to the culture, people and beauty of the country, and I / we allowed the fear that had been holding us back to take a hike. Here we were in a foreign country, with our minds in a blur of all that we could create if we only allowed ourselves the chance, and believed.

Three months later, it was time to go back to Panama for my next cancer checkup. This time our friend Debbie stepped up to the plate to go with me. She was impressed and felt a tugging on her heart as well, as we explored the sights and sounds and beauty of what this place could offer us, and what we might be able to offer back. A chance to follow the desires of long tucked away dreams and thoughts…

The three of us have been in close contact ever since, almost constantly expressing our desires and dreams. I have been to Panama twice more, both times traveling alone for my cancer checkups. As fate would have it, we have established some really wonderful, encouraging and faithful friends along the way. Those friends have served as my “extended” family the last two trips, and they have stood beside me every step of the way. I owe my gratitude to my Doctors there as well as my beautiful liaison, who has been by my side every step of the way.

In our dreaming of the possibilities that we could offer the people and visitors to this beautiful country, and believing in ourselves, things have and are still magically being placed in our collective laps. We all have our own part of the dream, and when you put the ideas together, you come up with a perfectly put-together puzzle picture.

The most recent opportunity came to me/us last month. The B&B where I have stayed for the past year on each and every visit was offered to us…the universe to me was saying, “Here you go, sweetheart, jump on this!” Without hesitation or fear, I said YES! We are now awaiting the proposal from the current owners… 🙂

In closing today, I encourage you all to be appreciative and grateful for ALL things, do NOT accept unacceptable, BELIEVE in yourself and your dreams, and let go of FEAR, for on the other side of fear is where you will find your joy!!