I am having such issues with time anymore. I do a lot of head shaking in disbelief, what, I’m late again? And it’s been going on for at least a year.
I was late to work four days out of five this week. I will look at the clock as I’m getting ready, calculate I have plenty of time to do …whatever… before I have to go out the door, and next time I look, fifteen minutes or half an hour will have passed in what I swore were only five minutes! What? How did I do that? Now I’m late! And I fly out the door in panic. I have been five to ten minutes late each time and this is not the first week, you’d think I’d figure it out. I swear time is having fun messing with me.
Last year, no matter how I tried, I kept mistaking the time set for a phone appointment I had with someone and called her twice at the wrong time. She is two hours behind me (ex.: me @10am would make her @8am) and I kept trying to make her two hours the opposite way every time I thought about it. So then of course, that day I called her two hours wrong, then one, then finally at the correct time. I was a tad mortified! LOL. I totally could not get a handle on it.
And so it continues. My job is such that I have to be in certain places at specific times. It makes it difficult when I am so “out of time”. I realise that we are living in the present moment, now time, but the rest of my life is not up to speed there. I am constantly thinking, @%*! I’m late again!! I usually get the clients there on time, but not early. Good thing I don’t have to punch a time clock and hopefully none of my bosses note my lateness in the mornings. I do make up for it at the end of the day because I am most often working over and just don’t claim that time instead.
I really need a job where my life is not partitioned off into these strict time segments. When I am home, the days fly by if I have many things I have to do but if I have a nonscheduled day, it feels like a very long day, a good day.
I’ve been up for several hours and when I look at the clock, it seems like it ought to be noon instead of only 10:00. I have nothing planned for today. Time is so weird these days. I just can’t get a handle on it yet.
I love this clock. It totally resonates….