This Isn’t Who I Am, Is It?

Dear Ones,

Your need to be right is popping up in the most unusual places. You have worked diligently for months or even decades to create a special light. Even so, others are pooh-poohing the results of those difficult transition tasks. As if your beliefs and actions have little value.

So it is many of you are confused about your current beliefs and actions. Were those actions valid or merely an unrealistic dream state with little value or need?

Perhaps those actions include ignoring friends or other parts of your world that seem unpleasant. Even though you wish to feel you are one with all, the decisions and actions of others feel wrong. How can that be if you are moving to love and away from fear?

You are most comfortable in a world of consensus – not necessarily of the entire globe, but within your friendships, communities, families, and countries. What is occurring is a division of 3D consensus and the creation of new concepts you are not yet comfortable with.

How can you ever be one with others who do not believe or act as you do? Yet, some of those you have written off are returning to your circle in ways you did not expect.

This is a confusing time.

Your new world is no longer linear. 

Circular is your new action word – and soon-to-be, belief. Even though that which was is no more, this new is different than you expected.

In 3D, once you negated someone for whatever reason, that tie most often remained broken. You are discovering what once was is no more. So it is, you might return to friends you thought you would never interact with again – or not.

Your new world has very few clear divisions. The deciding factors of yesterday are no more. Your actions and beliefs change daily. So it is, you are flitting from belief to belief, action to action, and thought to thought.

In 3D, clear-cut delineations were necessary to promote community thought. You are in a new place in a new time, discovering that nothing is clear regarding who you are or what you believe.

That last concept is frightening because you are not used to the freedom of thought and action while of the earth. You are now exploring new frequencies, dimensions, beliefs, and actions in Universal terms – as has been true since you were conceived eons ago. But when you were of 3D earth, you limited your thoughts and actions to fit within the accepted parameters established by others to create a 3D cohesiveness.

That 3D cohesiveness no longer exists.

So it is you are now exploring options you explored while not of the earth. As you do so, you are discovering new possibilities, and for now, new fears. It is as if your personal world is exploding with ideas, actions, and interactions.

Yet, your 3D world seems the same. You continue to be angry at some actions of others. But that anger is dissipating as you move into new places and worlds. And as you do so, you surprise yourself with new thoughts, dreams, actions, and needs.

Your need to be at one with others is no longer that important. Yet, your days and thoughts are full. Even though there is no longer enough time in your day to do all you wish, you do not seem to be doing that much.

Your new world is topsy-turvy. What once gave you joy likely does not any longer. What was once boring likely is no longer. And those you decided you no longer wished to interact with seem to have changed – or not.

It is almost as if you have become what many label a “walk-in.” You are a completely new being, learning more about yourself daily. Many of those new pieces are confusing, for they feel right, even though they are counterintuitive to your former logic.

“This isn’t who I am, is it?” seems to be part of your new being.

Adding and subtracting activities and thoughts – second by second. “Who am I?” was your refrain after you left 3D. A refrain that is becoming louder and louder.

You are surprised but not displeased with your new being. For you are likely calmer and more peaceful in your actions and thoughts.

That which once frightened you seems to be further away, including people, places, and things. You are more comfortable letting others fret and become angry, for you no longer feel much need to do so. You find yourself ignoring uncomfortable pieces and perhaps encouraging your loved ones to do the same. There is little need for you to jump into any angry conversation or action. You are more comfortable doing not much of anything than forcing yourself to be something, as was true in 3D.

“This is who I am, and I don’t feel much need to project anything else.” A new refrain that is surprising you as much as anyone.

When you are bored, you act upon it. And when you are excited, you do the same. All your 3D stops are being removed. And as that is happening, you question yourself. Not because you are uncomfortable, but because new you is different than 3D you – or how you expected to be in this new world.

You assumed flitting from interest to interest meant you would join a creative group here and a community group there. Instead, you are discovering you feel like doing less than before your transition. Everything seems like too much, likely including your job, cooking, driving here and there, or meeting friends. As if your world has stopped, instead of revving up to a new level.

You are exploring and flitting from place to place – either within yourself or physically. Just not as you expected. In the future, your flitting might be more outward than inward, as is true now. But it does not matter. There are no rules. Just as there are no Universal rules of what you need to explore when you are not of 3D earth.

Allow yourself to float, act, talk, and be, just as you allow an infant to do so as they explore their new world. You are doing the same in a new Universal being while of the new earth. The earth you helped shift from fear to personal freedom in joy and love.

So it is you are creating a new Universal being while of the earth in this lifetime. So be it. Amen.

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“You are more comfortable doing not much of anything than forcing yourself to be something, as was true in 3D.”

~Even though I am not forcing myself to do things or be someone, it feels like the days fly by, filled with more of who I am and what matters to me, and those things are definitely not what they used to be.

“You are exploring and flitting from place to place – either within yourself or physically. Just not as you expected. In the future, your flitting might be more outward than inward, as is true now. But it does not matter. There are no rules. Just as there are no Universal rules of what you need to explore when you are not of 3D earth.”

~I continue to flit around in myself about the things that interest me (and not beating myself up for it) as past endeavors hold little interest for me these days. Along the way, I see others doing and expressing what matters to them and am not compelled to tell them they should be doing things in the “right” way, i.e. my way. The arrogance in me gets is monitored and shut down. That is not who I am or want to be.

Life is different, I am different. And the exploration of that is fascinating.

Revelations of Non-Integrity

It’s happening….

.You are going to see more and more personal secrets being revealed about persons in high places of popularity or government. It will seem like an epidemic of non-integrity! But what is happening is exactly what we have been teaching. The new energy has light that will expose the darkness of things that are not commensurate with integrity. They have always been there, and they were kept from being seen by many who keep secrets in the dark.

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀-Kryon through Lee Carroll ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

Excerpt from live channelling Boston, Mass⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

March 11, 2017

The Golden Age of Humanity is Coming

The Golden Age of Humanity is Coming ∞The 9D Arcturian Council

Channeled by Daniel Scranton

“Greetings. We are the Arcturian Council. We are pleased to connect with all of you.

We are able to detect the slightest of fluctuations within the energy fields of all humans there on your world, and we are also able to detect the shifts that occur on the level of your collective consciousness. It is important for you all to know that there has been a major uptick in your overall vibration as a collective, and that is due in large part to the number of you who have chosen to stop the fighting, the name-calling, and the finger-pointing that has been going on for a very long time there on Earth.

It doesn’t mean that you are going to see everyone embracing each other regardless of their views on the major issues of your day, but it does mean that enough people have felt the discord, the lack of harmony within themselves when engaged in an argument or a fight, and have decided to let some things go. Enough people have graduated from the us-versus-them mentality that is so prevalent on your world and have opted instead for inner peace, tranquility, inner harmony. That’s what it takes.

It’s not about you all receiving the impact of a solar flash, and it’s not about any event that will happen outside of you. It’s not about disclosure or first contact. These things will all happen, but they will come as a result of the work that each individual does, and we want you to know that. We want you to realize the power that you have within you to lay down your arms, your weapons of words and thoughts.

It is okay to let someone else believe that they are right, even when you wholeheartedly disagree with them. It is all right to walk away from someone who is trying to bait you into a fight or an argument. It is so much more important that you exude love, compassion, and that you are an instrument of the universe than it is to be right. Have you ever noticed that you’re not right one hundred percent of the time? And yet you still cling to being right as though it defines your value, your worthiness. It really doesn’t.

You all need to live and let live if you are ever going to come together and stop the wars, the bombs being dropped, the gun violence, and so on. And as we have said previously in this transmission, enough of you are doing that, a small percentage of the entirety of the human population, but it was enough to have a major impact, and we want you to know that because we want you to continue to do it.

And we want to inspire those who are still fighting the good fight out there; you will never win because you are seeking to defeat a part of yourself, and that is not the way to become whole and complete. That is not the way to become your higher self and ascend, and many of you know that already. But for those of you who do not, this is a wake-up call.

Don’t even have the argument with the other person inside your own head. Forgive, send love, have compassion, and know that in some other reality that is you who has that belief and is pushing it on everyone else. You are awake enough to know that this is not the way, and that is why you resonate with us and our messages. And we want you to know how proud we are of you for letting go of the need to be right or to belittle someone for their beliefs or their choices. You’re all better than that, and you all know it deep down inside.

That’s why it feels better when you accept everyone where they are in the moment, and you look within yourself for you can change and how you can be better. We know that more and more people will be following in the footsteps of the peaceful ones, and we see them leading humanity into this golden age where everyone gets to create what they want to create, and no one is living in fear.

We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Negative Energies & Your Mission on Earth

Negative Energies & Your Mission on Earth∞The 9D Arcturian Council

Channeled by Daniel Scranton

“Greetings. We are the Arcturian Council. We are pleased to connect with all of you.

We have an unusually high tolerance for what you would call negative energies. We can accept them as they are and see them as having so much potential within them. We can utilize any energy whatsoever to serve the greatest and highest good of all, and part of the reason for that is because we do not feel afraid of anything or anyone. It is your fear that gives the negative its power over you. When you fear it, the negative energy can feed off of that fear and grow larger and more powerful.

So you want to see it as it really is, as underdeveloped consciousness. It is consciousness that has not yet remembered who and what it really is. Now, we are not saying that you have to go out and interact with all negative energies, but there certainly are those of you who do. Some of you realize you are doing it, and some of you don’t. Some of you remember signing up for that specific task, but most do not remember. And therefore, we want to assure you that if you are experiencing any negativity in your lives right now, you are serving humanity.

You are fulfilling your purpose just by being there amidst all of the negativity. You don’t have to fix it, and we think you know by now that you don’t have to defeat it. But there is one thing that you will always have to be in the process of releasing, and that is your fear of it. This is how experience comes in and really demonstrates to you how important it is. When you have an experience with a negative energy, or a negatively-oriented human, and you not only survive that encounter, but you grow from it, then you have released some of your innate fear. You have overcome the fear of that negative energy.

You are there to serve the light, of course, and offer that which is positive in the face of all that is negative, and that may seem like it is a job that is too big for any one person, and so we want to assure you that you are not alone. You are scattered all about the planet, each of you doing your own work, each of you releasing more and more fear every single day and making room for the positive energies that are coming in to support you and to transform you from within. This is your time; this is the time when you get to see the fruits of your labors and experience them not only in your personal lives, but on the world stage as well.

In case you have ever wondered whether you are making a difference or not, and you are receiving this transmission right now, we want you to know that you are. The difference that you are making may not be easy for you to quantify or measure, but it is real, and the cumulative impact of what you are all doing is enormous. You will start to see the effects all around you manifesting in the remainder of this calendar year there on planet Earth.

We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Finding My Path

June 06, 2021

From Kryon Book Nine – The New Beginning – Page 291

Finding My Path

Oh, listen to me! You walk inside a sphere. You think you’re on a straight line, but you’re not. This path of yours is not straight. You think that you do one thing after another, and you place them in a two-dimensional row.

You wonder about the future, and you consider the past, but you never see them together. Some have asked, “Kryon, when am I going to find my path?” Some of you are sitting in it!
It’s exactly why you came, yet you constantly look to the future and say, “Well, maybe later, maybe in the future, I’ll find it.” You walk on the inside of a sphere – that means that at an interdimensional level, you can see all the paths you ever walked and ever will walk just by looking around.  

They’re all together! It’s just like your idea of success and failure. It’s the wise Human Being that understands that not all is as it seems—that there’s more. When are you going to find your path, you ask? What if the lighthouse thought this way?

“Well, nobody has called me lately to thank me for shining my light. I haven’t had any skippers of any ships tell me they were thankful I was here, too. I think I’ll turn off my light and leave. Time to move on. I’ll keep searching for what I’m supposed to do.”


through Lee Carroll, the Original Kryon Channel (via

Beyond the Veils

Beyond the Veils

Channeled by Brenda Hoffman for LifeTapestry

Dear Ones,

We, of the Universes, wish to congratulate all of you for allowing the energies now pummeling the earth to become part of your new being. It is as if you graduated from a university with special honors. For if you are reading this message, you have evolved far beyond the point you anticipated before birth in this earth life.

That is not to say those not readily accepting the energies are bad or slow learners. But instead, that they are in a different phase than you.

We wish to address your new being instead of encouraging those following to hasten their pace or reduce their fear.

Those of you at the forefront are discovering the new thoughts and actions we have addressed several times. But by doing so, you are beginning to feel lonely in new ways. Such is true for those of you in relationships, as well as those in more isolated lifestyles. 

This loneliness has little to do with your romantic relationships and everything to do with discovering your Universal family, your beings. Now that you crossed beyond the veils, you are ready to rediscover those you have been interacting with within your dream state, in-between earth lives, and likely, throughout many of your earth lives in various ways.

Perhaps you heard or read that you are never alone. Such has always been true. But until now, you were unable to access your special friends, family, and cohorts beyond the veil – except in your dream state.

Most of you still believe you cannot do so. We beg to differ. Even though you tend to label any new skill as possible for others but not you, you can access your Universal beings whenever you wish. And when you dare, you will allow your beyond the veil family and friends to project a physical presence. 

Most of you do not believe such is possible. That you are not that skilled or spiritually talented. In truth, you merely need to release your disbelief to know you are not alone in your sleep or wake states. 

You have no difficulty believing you travel the Universes in your sleep state, yet you cannot imagine you are skilled enough to do the same when you are awake. 

It is time to shift your beliefs – both of your skills and your world. Many of you are in awe of those who channel, time travel, or do whatever you feel is a difficult Universal skill. Yet, you wish to do the same.

It is time to accept your new being in all its glory. For you are not the you that you believe is true.

It is as if you are a new fairy princess believing you are the Cinderella of yesterday. So you continue your Cinderella house cleaning duties while your nasty sisters direct you to do this and that. And all you would have to do is wave your hand, and the tasks you were once responsible for as Cinderella would be completed by your magic skills.

Even though your skill level has increased immensely in the past few weeks, you do not believe such is so. Perhaps you remain in your cocoon state or have a few AHAs, but that is not enough for you to believe you are a Universal being fully able to do what you find interesting – in your wake state.

There is little skill difference between your wake and dream states. Of course, many of you will immediately attempt to verify our words and fail. It is not because you are not capable, but that you are not yet ready to do so. 

There is nothing you need do now other than be aware of your abilities – all of which will become clear once you truly feel the need to exercise those skills. Cocoon now or slip out of your cocoon. It does not matter for you are on a unique path.

But once the loneliness we speak of begins festering in your new being, realize you are fully able to quench that need when you wish with your new skills. And once you do, your friends and family beyond the veil will entice you to new worlds, thoughts, and actions. Some of which will be applied in your current world, while others will be applied in different places and times.

You are a new being with new skills, which will be expressed when you need to do so. Not because of shoulds, but because of loneliness, boredom, and new interests. So be it. Amen.

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May 31, 2021: Personal Updates

This is a long, personal post so if you’re not interested in reading it, here’s a heads up. I’ll post another, non-personal one soon!

So much has happened since my return from Panama four years ago. Actually, I can’t believe it’s been four years already. If you are new here, I left a stagnant, unhappy, 36-year marriage in 2014. We both desperately needed to do some growing and reevaluating, and we needed to do it separately. I didn’t know if he would, but I was determined that I would. I wasn’t sure what my future held when I left, but I had to make changes. It took me twenty years to gather my courage, and I’m proud of myself for finally taking charge of my life. Four years after I traveled away, I returned to stay, a deeply changed woman. And meanwhile, my husband had also chosen to make inner changes.

Though I left Panama nearly four years ago, it remains a place very close to my heart. I learned so much while there. I love that country, despite any cons that popped up now and then. But truly, there are pros and cons anywhere you live. The temperate climate where I chose to settle was in the mountains of Boquete. It’s a really beautiful place with lots of greenery-a real need for me. The variety of food was tasty and cheap. Mostly though, I love the people. I met so many warm hearted, generous, and kind people there. And that includes both people born in Panama as well as expats and visitors from all over the world. It’s a fascinating place, and it was eye opening to meet various people and to learn the history of the country through the writings of those who lived it. I wrote many blog posts about my experiences during those years. From that four-year experience, I gained two lifelong friends, expats from the U.S. I also met a wonderful young family, immigrants from Machu Pichu, who I simply adore. They have two beautiful, mischievous, and smart little daughters. Richar (dad) is a super talented artist and is working hard to broaden his abilities and reach in the world. Eulogia (mom) works with him and has her own set of artistic talents. They have very little, and yet, they are generous and happy people. I often chat with each of my Panamanian friends over WhatsApp (we practice on each other in Español and English!), as well as send them boxes every Christmas. I miss my Panamanian family, and when it is possible, I intend to visit again. While I very much appreciate being in my own home again and am extremely grateful I can spend time with family at will, I do look forward to traveling once more.

The me I grew into, or uncovered, mostly while in Panama, is one I am so happy to be. I figured out who I am there, and I choose to love who I am instead of criticising myself constantly. It wasn’t easy and continues to be a work in progress.

On another note, health issues have arisen to surprise me since my return to the States. Rarely in my life have I had doctor visits, but lately that has changed. I experienced pneumonia the first year, was diagnosed with asthma and nasal polyps the next, and had an emergency gall bladder operation a year after that. I had a mole that interfered with my sight removed from my lower eyelid last year and plan to have the polyps taken out soon because they have smothered my taste, smell and breathing. I never thought about it much, but no smell or taste (no, it’s not COVID) makes cooking a bit dicey at times! I can’t be sure it tastes good and I truly cannot tell if a burner on my gas stove is accidentally turned on. So, much to my dismay, I am now quite familiar with doctors. But I am grateful I have access and insurance.

Also, since my return to the States, both of my old cats died, one at aged 17 a couple of years ago, and one at 20 in February of this year. I am very glad I was back here to love them and support them during their final years. A month before my first cat died, a tiny kitten showed up, crying in the rain around our house one night. It took me two months to get him to let me touch him and a year before we could get him inside (fyi: my older cat was NOT happy). Crazy how feral a six-week-old kitten already was. Due to the allergies and asthma I am now blessed with, I had no plans to have any more pets after my two old cats crossed over. Someone obviously had different plans for me! But I love him to death and he’s here to stay. Can you say, hello allergy shots?

My grandson is getting married in June after postponing it twice. They met at and graduated college together. I am very happy for him. His fiancee is a sweet and very smart girl. She keeps him on his toes because he often thinks he’s smarter than any of us. My granddaughter graduates high school, also in June. It make me appreciate the circle of life and how fast it turns because I remember well my own high school graduation as well as both of my children’s and all these children as babies.

This past year has been interesting, to say the least. I have learned a whole lot more about myself and the world. I have grown closer to some people as well as been surprised, and sometimes saddened, by others. I have subtly let acquaintances go who don’t leave me uplifted when they leave, rather they tended to leave negativity and doom and gloom behind. And I definitely stay out of certain subjects with beloved family members. I simply leave the room if they persist. I just can’t take in the negativity, complaining, or my-opinion-is-always-right-and-everyone-else-is-stupid-if-they-don’t-agree-with-me interactions anymore. Not that I argue with them, but they sure can get abrasive to be around if there’s a hint of a different perspective. That’s when I remove myself from the situation. Past me would have toughed it out but I’ve clearly gotten super choosy about who I hang around with and with what I allow into my energy field. It doesn’t nourish me in any way. I don’t walk away uplifted, and so, I choose to not take it in. Eloheim once talked about that subject, asking us, “Would you let someone come into your house and sxxx on your coffee table?” No! Then why would you allow someone else/yourself to talk to or treat you like that? Basically, you don’t allow anything to pollute your energy or lower your own vibration. I have taken that to heart.

Over the years, I learned to allow others to be who they were, while also standing in my own truth. To be me and not allow others tell me who or how to be. And I can do that without judgment or the need to convince anyone else of anything. These past few years have been a severe test of that. Yes, I slip but I catch myself. Who do I want to be, what kind of emanation am I putting out there? I’m not perfect, but at the very least, I make sure to notice and then surrender those thoughts when judgment, doubt, victimhood, assumptions creep in. It’s not my place. Not my job. Not my path. My job now is to evolve and be the best me I can be in each moment. I sought change and evolution strictly for myself, and if self-growth is not welcome to others, well, I cannot make that happen. And I cannot judge them for it. It’s not an easy practice but I keep at it. After all, we’re all just doing our best with what we know. I have learned to celebrate any evolutionary progress I make instead of beating myself up for not being perfect. Same with others.

My main spiritual teacher remains Eloheim and the Council. For last few years they have stepped up their teachings to another level, pushing us harder to evolve with each and every meeting, pushing us to look deeper inside, to tap into the places we hide so we can shine the light of consciousness on them and evolve them. They are pushing us to live from our Awareness self (aka Soul self) instead of through the filter of our Personality self. We’ve always lived in this world viewing life through a filter they call Personality, and it’s now time to change that. Eloheim tells us this is go-time. This is it. We incarnated here for this at this time. It’s a path that requires constant, conscious attention to every thought, word, and deed that comes out of me. At times, it’s exhausting, and I just want to sleep and not talk to anyone. I become so very quiet because there is nothing I need or want to add to the noise outside of me.

I’ve come to know that this a solitary, voluntary, inner journey we are each on. We are One, separated into individual journeys to add to the collective experience and knowledge of One. I am at the stage of life where I really appreciate that I have the open time to concentrate on this. I have no excuse not to. And it also feels like a reward for the busy, crazy life I’ve had, this current quiet, inward journey I’m on. This is the time and this is what I know I am to do. This is the lifetime I am able to wake and walk on Earth as my Awareness/Soul self while still in a physical body, per Eloheim teachings. How fantastic is that?

I find it exciting and fascinating to see the changes happening. Especially in the younger generations. Every little moment of higher consciousness counts to the greater good, and I celebrate those moments, whether they be mine or someone else’s.

So, there you have it. If postings have been a bit erratic around here, this is why. I am so immersed in my quiet, inner evolution/revolution that my blog, this sacred place I began ten years ago to share my life and spiritual writings of others, well, it gets a little shortchanged sometimes. And then suddenly you get a long-g-g-g post like this! 😀 If you made it this far, congratulations! I don’t know how you did it but I’m impressed! I shall end it here. Be well. Blessings to all of you!