It’s been a time of old (night) dreams dropping into my mind recently. All held wonderful messages for me. I don’t know why I have been revisiting them but I love dreams and so here they are for you to look at, too. Have I taken them on board and learned from them? Absolutely.
Below are some that stand out.
My Higher Self, in a human body, came to visit and I apologized to her for something going on in my home. She looked me in the eye and told me, “You say it’s okay, that it doesn’t matter…” and I woke up immediately with a gasp and the huge realization, “I say it doesn’t matter but it really does! It does! I am lying to myself!” I lied to myself and others all the time to avoid conflicts. The fact is, I do care what choice is made. It does matter. I do have preferences. I am as important as anyone else, and constantly putting myself last is not healthy. After that, every time I said something that was a lie to make someone else happy, I felt it, and I didn’t like it so I changed my behavior. This week I told two someones no after they begged me for help with taking care of their animals while they were away. I adore animals and they know it, and I have helped each them of them several times. If what they had asked me fit into my own life, I would have done it, but I had already made plans to be elsewhere or it just didn’t fit my timeline. To be truthful, I had to remind myself that saying no doesn’t make me a callous person before actually being able to voice that no to them.
I met many guides in several dreams over the years. My favorite, a huge, beautiful white wolf came and laid his head in my lap. I woke still feeling the coarseness of his hair on my palm from stroking his fur. I knew this wolf. A hawk spoke to me from his roost (I never remembered what he said) and when I turned away, he flew to my left side and morphed into a human male who put his arm around my shoulders as he walked with me.
As an animal lover, numerous animal totems have inhabited my dreams and those were the most vivid and easiest for me to remember. In dreams, animals symbolize our own traits, good and bad. They appear in our dreams to show us what is or what is not working for our highest good. Sometimes they suggest a different way to approach life using the traits of those animals. I’ve had giant toads jump on me and stick like burrs, seen alligators swimming in a river, horses penned in a corral, had a huge snake attempt to swallow me as I resisted (boy that one required some digging to figure out!), dogs, cats, a panther, monkeys wearing clothes, scorpions, lizards, so many different animals, I can’t remember them all. But they all made me think about the messages their presences brought and caused a shift in my thinking and behavior.
One of my most memorable dreams had a guide poised at the top of a steep ski run, bundled up in a ski coat with poles in her gloved hands. She looked at me and said, “What you need (pause) is Latitude. And Gratitude!” Then she shoved off with her poles and went zooming downhill with a big smile. I think about that message a lot when I get to feeling bummed about something. Latitude implies broadness of scope, freedom from narrow restrictions. Latitude to me means the being aware of the field of infinite possibilites and letting it work for me. Latitude means chilling. Freedom. Gratitude is rather obvious. Not thank you for my “blessings,” but feeling and expressing appreciation for all of life, for every moment, for the challenges we voluntarily took on when we decided to experience being human, for our body, for Gaia, for our Soulself. Latitude and Gratitude. I need that on a shirt.
I am loving remembering these dreams. They show me what I have learned and what I need reinforced.