I Speak My Truth

“I speak my truth. My conscience is clear. I can’t control how I’m perceived.”
~Christine Pavlova

This trait has gotten me in trouble with people my whole life. I would speak my truth and people would get upset when I was blunt or open about what was true for me. I would even plan to lie and the truth would come out in the moment every time. Even with my parents. Friends would unfriend me. Even my kids scolded me when I did this (yeah, they still do). “Mom!” Then I would feel bad I upset them.

Then I started holding back and hiding who I was. I really hated how people treated me when my truth was spoken. It made me sad and I would second-guess myself. So I learned to edit my words and distrust my truth.

Four years ago I noticed and began to let go of that pattern. I let my true self come forward again. Not feeling apologetic about it has taken more time. Now, though I may want to hold back or start feel bad when I am true to myself, I am aware of it, and I edit that edit. Nope. Not going backwards again. I cannot control how I’m perceived. As long as it’s my truth and not said to make someone else feel badly about themselves, I speak my truth. It is what it is to me. Here is my truth. You choose how you perceive it. 

For example, when my husband was gone all day yesterday helping someone plow snow, he asked me with a smile (as he has before), “Miss me?” Pause. “No.” Lying feels wrong. I cannot do it. And no, I did not miss him. I like being alone, actually, and he was only gone for a few hours. I expressed that. His choice was how to take it in. I know his question comes from his own issues, and his feelings need to be dealt with inside himself, not by me reassuring him. 

Not lying feels SO good in my body. That being said, I may not always answer a question or state my truth in a heated moment (like politics), but I do not speak a lie. Sometimes, it’s not a question they need an answer to (like when being nosy or gossipy), and sometimes it’s a very personal issue I don’t care to share or haven’t worked through yet. But I don’t lie. 

“I speak my truth. My conscience is clear. I can’t control how I’m perceived.” I really resonate with Christine. She is true to herself, and doesn’t hide who she is.










Consciousness of Individuality

January 21, 2019
From Kryon Book TenA New Dispensation

Consciousness of Individuality

Sweeping over the planet, even in the countries that don’t wish to admit it, is a consciousness of individuality. Human Beings are awakening out of the darkness, and they’re saying, “I am special; I am unique; there is no one like me. I will think the way I wish.” It’s everywhere. It has toppled governments and it will topple more… and that’s the plain talk of it.


through Lee Carroll, the Original Kryon Channel

Don’t Put Off Your Personal Dreams

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Don’t put yourself off this year – trust that whatever it is that you are trying to drive toward in yourself, for your life, will actually also be for everyone else, because that’s often the excuse that sensitives and healers will make, “Well, I don’t know if this is really serving anybody else.”

Well, do it, try it and then see.

Because the dream energy that we have in our hearts is actually a dream for the whole planet, and is the healing key we all need at this time. When we activate our personal dreams, we become more connected to life. And that connection energy is then rocket fuel to others, as it ripples out from you, to everybody else.

Big Love Lee x

From my January Energy Update

Lee Harris

No Repeats of Lemuria & Atlantis

No Repeats of Lemuria & Atlantis ∞The 9th Dimensional Arcturian Council

“Greetings. We are the Arcturian Council. We are pleased to connect with all of you.

We have begun to distribute light code activations to those who are ready to receive those activations. The environment that you are in at this time is absolutely appropriate for you to receive these unique light codes.

Now, the way that we are delivering them is through the connections that we make with you while you are sleeping, and these activations will ensure that you stay on course throughout this ascension process. There are going to be times when you feel tempted to take the easy route and find yourselves then going down a path of self-destruction.

But these light code activations are going to remind you of Atlantis and Lemuria, which were attempts to accelerate the evolution of consciousness using technology. And both failed. So when you hear about the wonders of technology now and you think there are possible shortcuts to getting to where you are going, please realize that these shortcuts are pitfalls.

That is not the experience you signed up for. You chose to ascend with your consciousness in your physical body, and you chose to do it through processing your emotions, accessing more unconditional love and compassion, and going within to discover the truth of who you really are. It is the longer way. It is the more painstaking approach, but it is the most satisfying one, and ultimately, the most successful way to ascend.

And when you do it the old fashioned way, you don’t need to worry about the technology failing, and you also have something to give to the rest of humanity. You will have your wisdom and your experience, and you will use it to help others ascend. It will not happen because you created some gadget in your garage.

We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”


You Are High Frequency Conduits

You Are High Frequency Conduits ∞The 9th Dimensional Arcturian Council

“Greetings. We are the Arcturian Council. We are pleased to connect with all of you.

We are placing a great deal of our attention on how humanity is going to handle the influx of energies that you are receiving at this time. The reason why it is important for us to notice how you are handling the energies is because we need to constantly monitor how much transformation you are ready for.

Now, some of you are ready to become your higher selves completely and ascend to the fifth dimension, but most of you are not. Most of humanity needs to experience much more of that fourth dimensional energy before they are ready to transform completely.

Sometimes when you add high frequency energy to an equation it doesn’t always give you the results you might expect. So most of humanity is being slowly coaxed into the hot bath of the fifth dimensional energies. But when those of you who are awakened are able to handle more, you sort of filter the energies for the rest of the collective.

The energies move through you, they transform you, and then they are made available to the rest of humanity in that filtered form, which is a bit watered down. The trees and the animals do this as well, and you have joined them in their mission to help humanity, to ready all of you, for those very high frequency energies that are coming at the time of the shift.

Now, when you perform an energy healing on someone, you send them the highest frequency energies they are ready for. When you send someone a transmission of love, you are literally sending that love at the highest frequency they are capable of handling. We are watching. We are monitoring, and we are working with you.

So you can relax and know that you are doing enough just by being there and by being open to receive. This shift is not about doing, and it’s not about defeating any dark forces. This shift is about all of you being the highest frequency conduits of energy you can possibly be.

We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”


Are You Compromising Joy?

Channeled by Brenda Hoffman for LifeTapestryCreations.com

Are You Compromising Joy?

Dear Ones,

You have likely discovered that despite your best attempts, you are feeling somewhat burdened by the holiday activities. Such is so because you are not only fulfilling 3D commitments, you are also allowing, even encouraging new skills and directions within you.

What you are not yet aware of is that you are also likely to feel more joy than expected throughout the next few days. Such is so because you have climbed and conquered the mountain of guilt, shame, lack of self-love, and fear that was your 3D being lifetime after lifetime. Instead of wishing and hoping, you are beginning to feel the need to change, to create experiences that better meet your inner needs.

Even though you have prepared for months, years, even decades, it was only recently you allowed your inner-being to direct you. For you believed lifetime after lifetime that your directives were dependent on those wiser or wealthier than you.

Such is not to say you are completely free of 3D dictates, but that you question far beyond what you ever have. No longer are you willing to appease someone at your expense – emotionally or physically.

You are ready to create your new life. A life which may include those you now hold dear – or not. You are a new being in a new physical body.

Perhaps such a declaration does not seem that important now. But as you adjust to new you with new needs, you will understand what we are speaking of. For this need to create a new life is little different from what was true when we suggested you explore self-love.

The 3-D phrase of self-love held little meaning for you until you started living in self-love.

So it is for your creations. Your first creative wishes were perhaps of items that would propel you forward in your societal domain – a new car, home, bigger television, etc. That is until you began questioning the need of others to discount, ignore, blame, or shame you.

Instead of accepting “browbeating” as part of your expected life, you felt the need to talk back, respond, deflect, ignore, or leave.

So it is now. You are shifting from pleasing everyone to knowing that before you can truly please anyone, you must please yourself. For your happiness, your joy is your light. Such is so because more and more beings of the earth are tired of the moodiness, anger, physical violence, betrayal, arrogance, and all other pieces that encourage anyone to feel less than they are.

Others will begin to question your joy.

Even if you have not yet pinpointed where your joy originates, you will soon enough. For your joy is dependent on your freedom of thought and action. As you allow those pieces to flow, so will your joy expand through and around you.

You are your own guru means that no one but you can make you sad or happy.

As you claim the energies now pummeling earth, you will decide sadness is no longer your friend. And that despite others’ tales of fear and anger, such is their choice, not yours.

Until now, you have felt the need to sense and then respond to fears and anger, pushing aside your joys in compliance with the woes of others. “How can I be joyful if my friend is suffering?”

Instead of accepting that your joy is a more important healing tool than sympathetic woes can ever be, you compromised your joy to meet the needs of others.

If everyone creates their life – and they do – why do you need to play their game instead of yours? Is it not more fun to play than to cry?

As a child, your best friend was most often someone fun to play and talk with. So it is now only in reverse. For you are in a new role in a new time.

Perhaps those friends and family who continue to feel the need for fear and pain will wish to be with you – or not. That is not your decision – it is theirs. Just as you are now declaring your freedom from fear.

Many of you wonder what you should do or say to those with physical ailments or emotional stresses. What do you wish to say? Do you wish to console them? Exit from the relationship or help repair them emotionally or physically?

The only choice you no longer have is to try to make them whole at your expense.

For you are no longer willing to placate, coddle, or take care of them if they are not willing to care for themselves.  Such will be your deciding factor. If they wish you to deny your truth to take care of them because they are too afraid, too lazy or too stuck in fear to do so for themselves, you will not be interested in furthering that relationship.

Some of you worry that such a statement indicates new you is selfish and unsocial. The opposite is true for you are claiming yourself in a new joy environment. Something you have planned for and dedicated yourself to for eons.

You are free and so is everyone.

How often do you expect others to take care of you? Most likely, you – because of your strengths – have been the designated caretaker for many of those you hold in your heart. But doing so is no different from a parent protecting their child from all pain and then suddenly thrusting them into the world expecting them to function in a world filled with fear and failure.

You forerunners are the joyful guides of those who wish to follow. Commiserating and taking care of their pain does not help you – and most certainly creates fear in them as they realize they cannot be like you. For they will continue to hold 3D fears without knowledge of how to eradicate or complete their clearing process as you needed to do before you discovered self-love.

You are not selfish or fearful. You are the joy example that will only strengthen as you declare your freedom to be and the same for all. So be it. Amen.

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